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She Was The East River

from The River by The Dark Backward

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So, I don’t think you know what you are saying, dear
Your words are awful slurred
And marked with signs of bitter thoughts
And secret men I’ve never
Heard of such a lie, or such a truth
But I can never tell with you
So close those pretty eyes and think of times
When love was something pure

I’m feeling like this pain could drag me under
Feels just like the blood’s ice in my system
Holding onto to all my memories before they’re gone

So days and weeks and months will pass
With every single night just like the
Lasting taste of shame that you
Will shake your head at until it passes
The ring around my finger
Chains the guilt around my ankles
And the current’s swift
So you won’t have to worry anymore about me!

I’m feeling like this weight could drag me under
Feeling like my blood’s sludge through my system
I’m holding on to all my fantasies before they’re gone

And in the end, after all is said and done
You’ll find me on the floor
Learning to swim for the time when the river must answer for the live that she’s taken!
Oh, then you’ll say to me...
Oh, then you’ll say to me...
It’s finally...over.

I remember Paris in the summer
I remember flowers, strewn across a bedside table
I remember long abandoned vineyards
I remember poetry, and how it felt when you lied to me

You are now the spirit of this river
You are now the storm that rocks the boat and throws me over
Feeling now, the undertow
I try to swim, but you’re too strong
And now I’m going under...and now I’m going under...

So we have both fell victims to this current
Drunken sailors making waves across the icy water
Reaching out for something to hold on to
Blind to all the fucked up things you always said or put me through

You are now the weight that drags me under
You are now the victor of another endless struggle
Clutch my throat, and smile sweetly
And stroke my cheek and say to me
“You’re just another silly scene, in another stupid movie”

She was the east river
She was the east river
She was the east river
She was the east river

The forest gives the air to breathe
The river gives the growth it needs
Each branch as far as it can reach
Singing melodies

And now that I have become one
With who I am and what I've done
I'll stretch each branch out to the sun
Living fearlessly

And so for every bated breath
We lose a chance to take a step
We must convince our roots to dance
Alive and finally free

Never settle, never be a victim to the life you lead
Gather now the will to scream, I'm listening

Who could've guessed?
Who would've thought that I'd keep on treading water?
Not convinced, not amused by your better than thou demeanor
And honestly, it never looked good on you
Apologies are cheap these days, they're never quite worth the cost we pay

It was my fault, it was my curse, it was a cheap attack on all we were
Flex your claws, watch me squirm, no longer afraid of getting hurt
But honestly, what damage could you do?
I know that you have thick skin, but now I'm looking through you

And look how you've destroyed what never happened
And look how I've rebuilt my ship from scratch
Without a story, you can't write an ending
The river swift, it picks it's pace, there is no time for looking back
And I can not remember how this happened
And who I might have been before the crash
But now I've washed ashore among the wreckage
My lungs welcome a needed breath
I gasp for breath, I gasp for someone

Away from where the mesas touch the sky
About forty-five from Santa Fe
I left that place so far behind
My childhood dissipated

Away from where the freezing cold
Convinced me I'd been left alone
To flood tomes and alcohol
I hate the Colorado winter

But now the sky -- It rises up? Or down?
I can't tell which -- to meet the water
Flowing through my every inch
The rain the skin I miss when absent

Replace my arid and dusty bones
With soil and silt from down below
In the Northwest I found my soul
You'll find me up the river


from The River, released October 14, 2016


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The Dark Backward Portland, Oregon

Portland-based rock band The Dark Backward was founded by Jordan Daniel and Alex Marble, previous members of Jane Lane and Sudden Epidemic. The Dark Backward plays original compositions of honest, emotional music that makes audiences want to move and exorcise their demons. The band plays rock and roll that incorporates all musical genres, including blues, jazz, punk, pop, and electronica. ... more

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